Ick

So we've been informed Kayla has abanded her daughter with her psychotic ex.  NICE!

This is my avoidance

I'm supposed to walk to the mail box. It's about 1.5 blocks away. 5 min walk 1 way. I'm avoiding it. Why? Turns out I have an anxiety disorder. HA! All those years I thought I was just REALLY shy. Nope. An actual disorder. Diagnosed by a professional I started seeing in Feb. So as part of my getting better I'm supposed to walk, alone, to the mailbox, then walk home, then repeat. It's the repeat part that blew my mind. I thought, do it once, done! yea me. Nope. Do it over and over the therapist says. Icky. She made me go for a walk during our session last week. How unconventional. *sad face* My appt is in 18 hrs so I better get moving. Haha. Just typing about going has made my hands sweat and my feet are now tingly. Great. Better go now before my legs go numb.



Update

Did it! What a great day out. Too bad most people think shoveling is optional. I'm lucky I didn't turn an ankle walking in that slush. I did walk through puddles because who can resist a good puddle. I will actually swerve to drive through a good puddle because it's awesome!

Driving Lessons

Here are somethings I have learned this winter about driving. If you have to kick snow away from the bottom of your car door before you open it....your car is too low....stay home....you will get stuck. If you have no ability to put your vehicle into 4 wheel drive....stay home.....you will get stuck. If you are driving on one of the side streets that the City, lovingly, left huge snow banks in one of the driving lanes and home owners feel they can still park on the street that has been reduced to one lane....the person that has the curb to their left MUST MOVE OVER. The snow hills on the right prevent moving over. Actually if you see my grill coming at you, you better just move, 'cause I got my 4 wheel on and I'm not stopping. But thanks to all my amusing neighbours that keep getting stuck in front of my house. It helps pass the time watching you. And to rub a little salt in the wound, I may just get into my Jeep and drive by you 3 or 4 times, 'cause I'm cool like that.

No mother, I do not want to see your ear hair.

Sheesh. I love my mother but WOW. I don't want to know that hair grows in your ears and I CERTAINLY DO NOT WANT TO SEE IT!!!! Seriously, my mother yoinks a hair out of her ear and says "Wanna see it". To which I reply EEWWWEEE NO, and she crosses the room and shows me anyway. Hand in my face. Geez mom. Holy need some boundaries batman.

Graduation

So I received more stuff/crap in the mail about #1 son graduation. I'm happy he's graduating. No, really, I am. So why does his accomplishment create so much for me?? No one gives mom a certificate for dragging his butt out of bed to be on time for school EVERY day. For all the nights I nagged about homework. For all the phone calls about 'why is your son not applying himself'. For all the grief. Sheesh. I just want to sit in a crowd. Clap when he gets his diploma and go home and relax. But noooo. We have photo dates, rehearsal dates, ceremony dates, dinner dates, party dates, fundraiser dates. Date, date, date, can I get a fig? Sigh. And does the other absent parent have to do anything? Nope. But he gets to show up like he in some way had anything to do with it. Other than contributing DNA. Yes, I may be munching on a bitter pill but it's mine. So I will now swallow it and carry on.

aha

I'm still hanging in there. Kayla took off with the baby. We haven't seen or heard from her in 6 weeks. Typical behaviour from her. I could spend all day about his but I don't want to dwell on the negative. She has been reported to child welfare and I can only hope they do their job and protect that baby.

Computer

I am teaching my computer to type as I speak.  Once I get the hang of this, it will make things faster.  I have programmed my computer to listen to only my voice.  It is taking some getting used to.  And still not sure how to change fonts and colors.

Laptop

I finished the baby blankie. Unfortunatly, baby and mother are gone so baby may never receive it. But someday she just might. Who knows. This was made from my brain. No pattern.

Laptop is home and back in action. It broke and had to visit Ontario. Was only gone 6 days, so Holla for Dell.

Done

I finished #3 son sweater. Yea me!

WHAT ?!?!

Guess what I just heard on the news..... go ahead......guess. A radio station in St. John's played the Dire Staits song 'money for nothing', someone was offended by one word in the song and complained to the point the song is now banned from radio in Canada. REALLY???  Used to be on the radio all the time. Want to know more http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Money_for_Nothing_(song).
 I hear lots of songs on the radio that offend me, can I get them banned? Should I? NO! I turn the channel, turn it off, or make my own music to listen to. Sheesh. And why phone CRTC? Why not phone Mark Knopfler? He wrote the song. He sang it. SHEESH!
Rant over.

Kidlets are safely moved. Even in the snow and the cold and only #1 daught and I doing the moving. Now can I be normal. HAHAHAHAHA. Not likely.

Brrrrrrr

Itsa cold out there. Saw #1 daught's new place. Really nice. We move her tomorrow afternoon. Bitty baby growing well. Rolls herself over and wriggles around. Very happy girl. Sweater for boy not done. Too busy today and too tired last night. Am going to work on it now. TTFN

Big Headed Baby

AArgh. #3 son has a really big head. It wouldn't fit through the hole in the sweater. Good thing I checked before I went too far. Had to pull a little apart. Should finish sometime today. I can't believe how many people have gotten stuck in front of my house. Even a mini school bus this am. #1 daught and #1 grand baby move into their new apt this week. Hopefully we can get every one back on a schedule now.

Still here

So, the world hasn't ended yet. A big, fat, snow storm arrived. #1 son still had to go to work. I haven't finished the baby's new blankie yet, but I found pieces to a sweater I started for #1 son 8 yrs ago. It won't fit him now so I've decided to finish sweater for #3 son. Neck almost done, then sew pieces together, then take picture, then put on #3 son, then take picture, then put in closet till grandchild grows into it. Haha. #3 son might wear it. Who knows?
Made icebox cake tonight. Just like my gramma used to make. Made me miss her soooo much. Glad she taught to make that, everyone loves it. She also taught me to knit. My mom's a lefty and I'm not so mom couldn't teach me, so gramma did. She also taught me how to cook turkey, roast beef, and chicken. Can't make cookies like she did. She never used a receipe and I always use one for cookies. *sigh* Well, back to sweater now.

Birdies n' Fish

What is up with the birds? And those fish? If you watch a lot of movies (and I do), you could imagine LOTS of different things. The theories flying around kinda crack me up. Hundreds of little birdie heart attacks, all at once, from fire works??? Reeeaaallllyy. All of a sudden birds don't like loud noises? Tell that to the Alberta oil ponds who's boom cannons do nothing to keep them birds out. So what is it? Day After Tomorrow? Independence Day? The Core? Terrorists? Who really knows? If the world is ending..... I love you....goodnight.

Nice

So it snowed again. I shovelled my walk last night. Then I did my neighbours. Then I did her neighbour. Then I did the front of the next neighbour. Then I was old, tired, and stopped. I hope that by me doing some random act of kindness for them, they in turn, pay it forward to someone else. (Or maybe do my walk next time it snows, haha). It would be nice to make someones day. Plus the exercise is good. Well it seemed good last night. This morning stuff hurts.

Son #3 is getting his immunizations up to date today. We got a little behind due to moving 7 times in 4 years. Crazy yeah? So he'll be getting about 5 needles this am. Poor pinwheel. (that's what I call him) He had about 6 vials of blood drawn last spring so I know he can handle it. He's a tough kid.

Resolutions / Did you know?

New year's resolutions. Made any yet? Every year I try to do stuff which, in all reality, never gonna happen. Things like....I'm going to run a minimum of 4 days a week, an hour at a time. HA! Not likely since I broke the pin that keeps the treadmill "put away" and it is now put away with tuck tape. So I've decided to do more manageable, realistic stuff. Like write on this blog 3 times a week min. I will also vacuum my mattress once a month. I used to do that. Not sure why I stopped. I just finished vacuuming it, fresh sheets, fresh quilt and pillow cases. How snugly. Did you know I make my bed EVERY morning. I get up, do my ablutions, and make my bed. Then I sit on my bed with my laptop, drink my coffee and check e-mails and stuff. By the time I'm done coffee the day starts.